As we get closer and closer to our little one's due date, I find myself reminiscing about our life as two. Attempting to soak up these last few weeks together while they're here. Of course, we couldn't be more excited about our growing little family but the truth is that I have loved the season we're in right now- the people we are right now...pre-parent Waldi & Ruth.
It's interesting to think that we will never again not be parents. That's certainly how life is- things move forward and change, often in a way that lingers on though many months and years. So I guess we are simply trying to enjoy our last pre-parenthood days. Because the fact is that everything is about to change. It's a good change- the best kind, even. It's the change we've talked about and longed for and planned around for months and even years. And in so many ways, we couldn't be more ready for it.
Of course, it's already begun. We've found a new place to live that has space for our growing family. Our decisions are already being made as parents- what we do with our money, how we spend our time, what I eat... so much of this is now done with baby in mind. But soon this change will be final and complete and that will be that.
We will not be Waldi & Ruth anymore- or at least not only that.
Since we found out about this pregnancy, we've been trying to intentionally enjoy moments together. We've been on day trips to neighboring cities, gone for brunch, and tried out new-to-us restaurants here in Marburg. We've been to the movies and the theatre, and spent weekends wandering through the Flohmarkt (flea market), coffees in hand. We even took a little mini-vacation back in December. These are all simple things, and probably even things we'll do after the baby is here, but it will be different. We will be different.
And for now I want to remember how it feels to be pregnant and together and excited for what is to come. I want to remember slow Sunday mornings, cooking breakfast at home with all the time in the world. I want to remember walking to our doctor/midwife appointments together- talking about our baby, stopping at the Farmer's Market or the bakery for a snack and just generally taking our time.
Because in just a blink (or 2 months...) this time will be over and we'll be up to our necks in a brand new season. And while we'll be gaining so much as our family grows, it still feels like the end of an era.
And that's always a little bittersweet.