"we all have the urge to create. to do so is freedom for ourselves and others" (Gabor Mate)
This past week has been a little tough for me creatively. Call it lack of confidence, lack on inspiration...I'm not entirely sure. Sometimes it feels like such a risk to share my art. I put hours of effort, love and creativity into each piece I design and make. At times I find myself worrying over how it will be received: will people see the value in it? will I be criticized? It all comes back to just one question that seems to follow me around, regardless of what creative endeavor I'm working on:
Am I enough?
Why is it that I can create with joy, pour my life and soul into a project, and then when it's finished, only see the flaws? Only see how it's not good enough, not creative enough...not ever ever enough? And yes, I worry about what others will say, but it goes deeper than that. I am, really, my own worst critic.
This quote reminds me of the reasons why I make. The urge to create is something I follow because being creative keeps me grounded in who I am. There is freedom in it. I love that I'm able to share what I create with others, but even if no body ever takes notice, I will still respond to that urge inside me to make beautiful things.
side note: this quote is from one of my favorite books, In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts (a look at the psychology behind addiction) by Gabor Mate. If you've never read it, I would recommend picking up a copy!